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Even looking within my own religion, I noticed during my
teenage years, that there was disparity within the religion itself, as well as
anger towards "those" outsiders who were outspoken in their feelings towards
minorities.
It did not appear to me in those early days of my life
that there was a lot of love in the world. Yet I was determined to go out into
the world and find the Love that I believed must be there, somewhere. My life
took the form of "looking for love in all the wrong places". I went
through my own mid-life crisis. Having first acquired all the props of success
in my 20's, none of it gave me the happiness that I dreamed the world offered
when I followed its rules.
After my own spiritual rebirth in 1972, I found ACIM 5
years later. I was a slow learner as I counted on my intellectual ability to
grok the Course by studying the Course for many years trying to connect all
the dots in the 1300 pages.
It has only been the past few years that I have come to
a whole new understanding of its Purpose and its Rewards. Recognizing the
Voice within me as my Higher Self, The Holy Spirit that dwells within us all
as my Internal Guide, I have learned Trust in a way that the Course speaks
about, yet must be experienced by the Student to fully Appreciate.
I am Grateful for the recognition of our Father's Love
for us all giving us His Gift to us as Spirit who knows us as Perfect and is
not fooled by the forms of this world I have given meaning to, yet can now see
them through the eyes of Spirit and Forgiveness.
I had an NDE, (a near death experience) where I left my
body and calmly looked down upon my body back in 1980. For many years I had
interpreted that event as seen through the eyes of my ego, where I did not
know why I came back and had come up with 2 possible "meanings" which seemed
rational, according to what the world would agree was "sane".
Recently the Spiritual Eye within me gently showed me
that the Peace and Calm I experienced in those moments which I looked down
upon my body came from the fact that my Higher Self gave it no meaning....
that my ego thought system would give "all of its meanings" to it.
My path now is extending that experience by using my
underlying mantra for looking at the world I see, recognizing that "I do not
know what anything is for" from WB Lesson 25, and now Ask to have it shown to
me.
It is this willingness that has provided me with a
"Letting go" process. Holy Spirit recently showed me "Losing your baggage is a
good thing."
Today I use as my bottom line signature "Laughter NOW,
saves lifetimes later."
I now see that all the meanings I have given to everything in this world, including the thoughts I had when I was young and seeing the world thru the eyes of my personality, I saw what I wanted to see, and felt it was an attack on me. I took it seriously then. Now I can step back, smile at it, recognizing that is what I wanted it to mean. What I took seriously, I can smile and laugh at it now. Thank You for asking for my story.
In Appreciation & Gratitude
Lov, Dov :-) Laughter Now saves lifetimes later |
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